1. |
Day Job
03:11
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I wanna shake you off
Your high, high horse
Once and for everyone
Now what’s that cost?
I’ll scrape dimes up
From the asphalt
Or keep my day job
Ha ha ha
When the water’s low
The weeds still grow
And all the flowers are
The first to go
You were bright before
And beautiful
But you dried up
Ha ha ha
So keep your day job
Ha ha ha
Now you play solitaire
Card by card
And don’t know what got you there
But its your fault
You played a perfect game
That no one saw
So keep your day job
Ha ha ha
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2. |
Patterns
05:01
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You paint the nicest view
Our lens to see you through
But there’s another side
Where nothing is a gift
And everything’s a bribe
And I’ve been watching you
The way you shed your skin
When sunlight’s creeping in
So they don’t recognize
You’re just another him
And once you’re in
You’re taking what no one gave
You just like to see people bend
‘til they break
No level of control
Could ever make you whole
But you’re still gonna try
To fix the wobbly chair
That wobbles 'til you die
It doesn’t feel fair
It used to get you high
To have them in your palm
Now nothing gets you there
And nothing takes you home
Thats when you’ll know
That all that you thought was you
Was defined by the people you abused
And that’s still true
But time wasn’t kind to you
And your skin doesn’t shed like it used to
You can say you’re sorry but that don’t make it true
We will not abide these patterns of abuse
You are nothing, nothing, there never was a you
We will not abide these patterns of abuse
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3. |
Two Hundred Dimes
05:35
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It’s since been deemed a criminal act
But back in my day
Street sign theft to show where you’ve been
Was a mainstay
No one wore shoes
Or helmets
We were hard headed
Parents bereft
Expectations be damned
It was one in the box
And two in the can
I wish I was my own private planet
Somewhere to run when things got bad
If I had the guts
to love empty handed
Just orbit the sun
And spin where I stand
And be one with the box
And two with the can
I hope you die
and it never stops raining
I’ll catch a train to the port of versailles
Close both my eyes
And trust in my training
I know how to cry
I’m just tired of explaining
I’ll be one dollar spent
On two hundred dimes
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4. |
Just Coffee
04:35
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I guess you chose
And that’s the way it goes
I’ve played it back 100 times
I can’t believe I froze
Day would rise
And weary, I would drive
To wash the tables, scrub the floors
And wish I felt alive
You’d be standing there in scrubs
And I’d be saying something dumb
That look in your eye
I never found out what it was
I left home and that was that
Missed you next time I came back
I guess I assumed we’d have
Another chance
You weren’t like anyone I’d met
I wanted you to find me charming
It hasn’t happened yet
A common language
I thought would bring us close
But soon enough I’d said my peace
And you became a ghost
I thought it was an answered prayer
A finished song, a minor scare
I nearly crashed your car
Trying to get us there
I wonder if it's crossed your mind
Now that we’ve both had some time
I guess some stories end
On the opening line
We kept it light
But you seemed so uptight
We walked through blooming meadows
But it never felt quite right
Overcast, by shadows from the past
You never really saw me there
And soon the whole thing lapsed
And for whatever reason
You never bothered breaking through
Whatever held you back
From something new
And I still wonder where you went
And what of all that time we spent?
Round peg in a square hole
Or handprints in cement?
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5. |
Ursula Major
03:05
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I won’t interfere
No I won’t enter fear
I won’t pick you up from where you are
To put you here
You are not my center
And I am not your sphere
I wish these days would pass
We take the old thing back
But I’m not in the business of putting rabbits back in hats
I’m not a good magician
But I used to make you laugh
Ursula Major
The only constellation I could call
My only consolation with you gone
And I just hope you’re getting what you want
My big dipper
Bucket for big boy tears to fall
Summer’s making fools of us all
I wish that you would say its not my fault
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6. |
Control
05:32
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Day is growing dark
And I have burns from your sparks
And I’m too drunk to drive
But I guess its just a couple blocks
As soon as I get home
I feel totally alone
I try to crack the code
With the pictures on my phone
I’ve never been afraid to die
I’m just afraid to go outside
Of finding what I always find
There’s nothing in the world that’s mine
And I can’t seem to find control
And I’m no good at letting go
But I’ve carried more than I can hold
Control
I know this is wrong
Everybody tells me so
They’re telling me move on
Telling me to slow my roll
But why should I avoid letting nature take its toll?
Here I am, destroyed
Here is where my flowers grow
I used to pray that I would die
Too afraid to go outside
Of finding what Id always find
There’s nothing in the world that’s mine
And I can’t seem to find control
And I’m no good at letting go
But I’ve carried more than I can hold
Control
The grass is growing tall
Along the edges of the fence
The paint chips off the walls
When you’re in love it all makes sense
Fall is blowing in
I watch the colors change again
I used to be a leaf
Now I feel more like the wind
There isn’t much to die I guess
All I really have is breath
So quiet on the human set
I’ll gnash my teeth and beat my chest
Cause I will never find control
And I’m no good at letting go
But I’ve carried more than I can hold
Control
I can’t seem to find control
And I’m no good at letting go
But I’ve carried more than I can hold
Control
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7. |
The War to End All Wars
04:19
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I sat in the shade
No longer afraid
Of being out of the sunlight
And into the moonlight
Like a spotlight
I’m hiding in plain sight
And playing a chord
I’m no longer bored
I’m losing the war
To end all wars
So I brush my teeth
And I take my seat
On a bus downtown
Where the buildings are taller
And I’m smaller
You’ll never find me now
Sorry and sore
Caught up in the score
I’ve surrendered the war
To end all wars
Well, aren’t things simpler now
With the walls torn down?
Swords into plows
All we need now is to forget
So I sit like a dog
At the door of disaster
And I wait for my master
Who never throws me a bone
When I ask her
So I don’t count the days
Like I did before
White flag on my porch
Reminisce on the war
To end all wars
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8. |
We Chased the Moon
04:14
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Saturn’s fall from his own throne
The season of no heading home
Sirens fall on old Saint Paul
And nothing’s here that isn’t gone
Called to rest and join them all
I feel the small, unmoving sun
Tumble off the clouds
Like certain doom upon the crowds
Who chased the moon
Every train that buzzes past
My patch of green, with insect wings
Carries me so far and fast
To somewhere I will never be
Dead, to know the quiet threat
That makes a life of pure regret
Drawn and quartered out
A labored shout
A blue-eyed croon
We chased the moon
I told you so
Everyone as you’d expect
Is wasted on the newest heck
Hawks abound to prey
Upon the youth
Like new tattoos
We chased the moon
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9. |
Night's Quiet
02:49
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Red light
Red paint
My sky
Someday
Cold eye
Coat tails
Rode high
Limp sails
Where pain lies
I’m falling in
To the pools where the unforgiven swim
In the shade of the tree that brought us in
And you’ll say
“I never thought I’d see this place again”
White paint
Blue light
Sunday
My sky
Dawn’s grace
Night’s quiet
I’ll say
"That’s fine."
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10. |
Strangers in Love
04:00
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Kick off my shoes and socks
And wonder where you’ve gone
It’s not like you to stand me up, but then
I don’t even know who you are, my friend
Cause you say me when I say us
You say down when I say up
You say walk, and I say run
Strangers in love
The bells that ring decay
The flowers wilt away
Seems like everything moves in time one way
It'll happen to you and I someday
You'll say like when I say love
I'll say more, you'll say enough
You will push, and I will shove
Strangers in love
Regret can go two ways
With stones unturned or raised
Even if it's just bugs and worms below
There's a part of me that just has to know
You say magic, I say luck
I see water, you see blood
As below, so above
Strangers in love
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